What to do with the title? It is just random-me again

I always wanted to write about this but was confused about where to start,however let me start it anyway.

yes we are nearing the end of the year, time is running fast. I have realized that after graduating life is literally the most questioning time since we already have been responsible with ourselves. what do i have done in this past year? I am grateful to be given the opportunity to complete my thesis in July and graduate in August.

since long time ago every phase transfer has always been a thrilling thing. fear about how we will go through the day after one phase has finished. however, the post-college phase feels more tense. people say "welcome to the real world".
and here I am in the real world.

Actually after the thesis-test I already worked in an office. but i deciced to quit form my last job. Some people asked me why I quit from my job, and I just said that I need a gap (maybe months).
but its actually more than that, since college I used to be independent and hard with myself .as the eldest I really want to help parents and can improve our lives. I'm not saying our family lacks yeah it is even more than enough.
thats really enough, but i am still starving. i feel like i want more than what i get form my last job. The pros and cons after i quit form the job come right at me. Actually i am afraid but i am also curious about what the future hold for me. So i stick to my self there is no regret at choosing something. Life always about to choose after all

As the epilogue, one of my favorite writers Ika Natassa writes about counterfactual thinking, or in the easy word we say "what if" scenario.
Sometime i thought about what if i didnt choose to resign, what if blablabla but in the end it was really pleasant to be 21 years old, and do anything with no job, no significant other, no deadline, and no homework.
In some cases, it lead me to be more grateful and know the meaning of life. For me, when I remembered what had happened in the last recent months, I felt so lucky. I am so blessed for deciding to take this gap after graduated from college.

See you again next time